I finished my hospital treatment on March 13th 2012. It has been approximately 2 and a bit weeks and it feels like forever. I'm not sure if others have experienced this but I seem to swing from having infinite patience and tolerance to none at all! I have found myself to be snappy and mean and that's just not me, I don't like it but I guess its one of those psychological side effects that comes from being ill and poked and prodded and having limited ability to do what you want and go where you want for a year.
I want everything now or even better yesterday! I don't want to wait for anything and it feels like my recovery is going at a snails pace. I just want normality I guess, to be able to go bloody swimming so I can start to get rid of the weight I've gained through treatment, to go out for a few hours and not be totally knackered the next day! To put my hair in a ponytail! Lol!
This road to recovery is going to be a long one it seems and there are still hurdles to come - I have to see the Genetics people in April and am worried the outcome will include more surgery, I am still waiting to see what side effects the Tamoxifen (hormone treatment) will have on me, every test I have puts me on tender hooks and this is all before I have to look for a job/place to live and start my life over again.
I guess being through all this I just want simplicity in my life - no games, no complications just truth and purity, its very true that life is too short to mess about, but with living in that way you must be brave - to be honest to be true to yourself in all areas of your life. Its an old adage but in the end the truth will set you free.......