Monday 3 December 2012

Moving.....Backwards?!?!?!

So, it's December and I've just finished a post Breast Cancer Course called Moving Forward.  I did really enjoy it and it was very useful.....unfortunately other factors have made me feel like I'm actually going backwards.

I have recently been diagnosed with Lymphoedema and had my assessment with the local Lymphoedema Nurse a few days ago, it was not a good couple of hours, my arm is buggered at the moment, lots of nerve damage from the surgery and she also diagnosed me with Cellulitis in the affected breast as well as the original problem of Lymphoedema!  So armed with antibiotics I came away and had a good cry with the words "you are not looking after yourself enough" ringing in my ears.

I think maybe I've gotten ahead of myself, trying to con myself into thinking I'm OK when quite obviously I'm not. But I want to be, and therein lies the problem.  I'm falling over myself to try and be normal and to be back where I was before my diagnosis and in doing that I've not done myself any favours.

So after my horrible few days some advice, take care of yourself, you are the only one who knows you well enough to know what is good for you and at this time when we are all struggling to get back to "normality" whatever that is, be especially kind to yourself, put yourself first - the world will not end if you do.