So, I'm nearly done with Chemo and my hair is back - I still look like a tennis ball as its very short but I could now go without my wig. The problem is I can't seem to take the step of giving it up.
It seems silly to me that getting back to normality could cause me such angst, but I guess its more peoples reactions that I'm worried about - which really isn't like me at all. Being so short I know people will look at my hair and probably think to themselves "Hmmmm Cancer" and I don't want to be treated any differently because of that. And lets face it - my hair like this - not a fashion statement!
I think my reluctance to let the wig go is because before I lost it all I had really long hair to hide behind and my wig affords me the same option! It's a confidence thing too - although short hair does suit me I just feel....well naked without my mane!
I'm sure a lot of the women who lose their hair through chemo or other reasons go through this but I wasn't expecting to be so bothered by it, it's just hair for God's sake! Why should I care what anyone thinks? It will grow back properly soon enough!
So now the question is.....when will I be brave enough to lose the wig? I will be going out for lunch with some friends in a few days...should I just take the plunge? I will keep you posted!!